*sigh*

it just a deep hurt heart release from me. i dont mean to complain but it just an awkward feeling that i never thought it gonna exist in me. for me i like.. surprise movement, unplanned planning that spontaneously will appear in my(our) daily routines... such as woke up late, suddenly want to making love in the morning or in the midnight. it sometime will spark the challenging moments in our life.. and i guess he never thought that i like and always thinking about spontaneous because he jut so routine ~everyday~ and for today... actually it start last night... i'm feeling so lonely in my sister in law house ... he just ignored me even i went to the room .. he dont even stretching his head on me in that cool room.. i know maybe he missed the old him and stay down there watch TV with her sister.. i dont even give a damn ... but at least please look at me .. please dont ignore me even for a second.. because i still feel that i'm a stranger...